"From Insecurity To Eternal Assurance"
|When I was born, my Dad was in the U. S. Marines in the
Pacific Islands during World War II. My mother was living with her
parents in Northwestern Pennsylvania. I was 2 years old when the
war ended and Dad came home but he was a stranger to me and I was afraid
of him. He had to leave again to finish out his tour of duty
at another Marine base in Virginia. My grandparents urged my mother
to go with him so they could get reacquainted. I stayed with my grandparents
and ended up living with them. My grandmother died when I was 7 and
my grandfather was now my only security. He loved me so much!!
On my 9th birthday, my parents were moving to South Carolina. They picked me up so I could live with them. I was heart broken to leave Granddad, he was my love and my security. It was scary and yet exciting to be going so far away with my parents.
We moved to a small southern town, everything was quite different but I knew my parents loved me too. Neither Dad nor Mom went to church, but they would allow my sister and me to go. Even at that early age, I was keenly aware of God’s presence, I knew I was not worthy to be seen by God.
One day, my sister, Carol and I went to a nearby tabernacle. I don’t remember what the message was but I knew I was a sinner and needed God’s forgiveness. Romans 3: 23, “For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God.” I opened my heart to receive Jesus Christ as my Personal Lord and Savior. Romans 6: 23, “For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” My heart lightened as my burdens were lifted, I knew the Lord was the stability, love and security for which I was searching. Even at 9 years of age, I knew my future was eternally secure, Jesus was in Heaven preparing a place for me. John 14: 1, 2b, “Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me……I go to prepare a place for you.
Over the next nine years, we moved many times and we were always the “new people” in town. I married young and had 2 wonderful children. The Lord was not always my top priority. I was not especially unhappy but I would sometimes think, ”Is this all there is to life?” I spent years…just plodding along. I knew I was heavenly secure but something was missing. Then I started going to church regularly and became aware of my need to get right with God. John 10: 29, “My Father, which gave them me, is greater than all; and no man is able to pluck them out of my Father’s hand.
As we mature, situations may change in our lives; hopefully, we get our priorities in order. When things fall into place we can see that God has a perfect plan for each of our lives. Romans 8: 28, “ And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”
I love to hear what the Lord has done in other people’s lives. I know He worked a change in me! My parents, sister and daughter are saved also. I’m just sorry it took me so long to realize what a blessing it is to serve the Lord. I had left God but He never left me.
Today, I am married to a wonderful, loving, faithful man (former VietVet Marine) who loves the Lord. We are active members of Northeast Baptist Church and are serving as leaders in our church youth group. Every thing we do should be for the Lord’s honor and should point the way so others can come to know Jesus as their Personal Savior.
By His Grace, Eternally Secure,